Week 37 Weigh-in

Starting weight: 505.4 lbs
Week 31 Weight: 463.6 lbs
Week 31 Change: -2.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 41.8 lbs

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The comment's been made, and I think it's fair, that my blogging "voice" tends toward persuasion. I want you to believe what I'm saying is true.  And I can promise you that when I write, what I'm writing is sincere.  So I want you to hear what I'm saying now, and I want you to believe it:

Losing weight, and losing a large amount of weight, is really, really hard.  It's really frustrating.

And it's really easy to lose sight of the goal. It's really easy to compromise. It's really easy to lose hope.  It's easy to convince yourself that an extra piece of candy or an extra spoonful of tikka masala is totally okay, and won't make a difference.

It's easy to lie to yourself. 

I want to stay upbeat. And I can always claim the fact that, unlike past weight loss attempts that usually had a shelf-life of about 6 months before fading out, after almost 9 months, I've still maintained a 40lb weight loss. That's all well and good. But it's still only 20% of my goal.  I have a long way to go.

For some reason, I got on my old Youtube channel and watched the vlogs I shot over a year ago, the last time I tried to lose weight and failed.  It's interesting hearing your own voice say all the things you know you need to hear.

I really don't have a conclusion or final point.  This is hard, gang. And I started off the week badly.  If I can't be very controlled and get in at least 2-3 workouts, I may post a gain.  I'm so tired of being on the yo-yo again.

[Insert peppy rah-rah final thought here]

Brief Catch-up Post

Yes, I've been a lousy fit-blogger.  No excuse for that.

Here's the run-down, in about 60 seconds:

• Since I checked in last, I've had a net gain of 5 pounds. Current logged weight: 466.
• Not sure how tomorrow's going to go, but I have no reason to think it won't go well.
• I'll try to get back to regular posting in the next week or so.
• Tomorrow marks 4 weeks until Mudder Dash. I'm concerned, to say the least...

Happy Friday, all.

Week 31 Weigh-in

Sorry, forgot to log it this week.

Starting weight: 505.4 lbs
Week 31 Weight: 460.4 lbs
Week 31 Change: -1.0 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 45 lbs

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Another loss, and keeping up the 2 lbs / week average. Hoping for another strong week.  I've had a few less-than-stellar days this week, so the goal is to finish the week strong. 

I'm sorry that I'm not very chatty lately.  To be honest, I'm feeling a bit uneasy lately about the diet/fitness thing.  I'm just not feeling especially confident lately--not that I'm having second thoughts about committing to do this, but rather that I don't trust myself to have the strength to persevere.  And just saying "I'm gonna do it! I'm never giving up!" is a load of empty words.  I'm tired of empty words.

It's funny (and perhaps fitting) that I find myself going back to the simple phrase that has kept me going in the past:  Win the day.

You screwed up the diet yesterday? Let that go. Win the day.

You haven't gone to the gym in a week? Start over. Win the day.

Your sleeping habits are erratic, and you feel exhausted? Shake it off. Win the day.

I can't promise I'll hit all my fitness goals.  I certainly want to reach my goal weight and live a healthy life well into my twilight years.  But I'm feeling too weak to give you guarantees of that. So I'm just going to focus on winning the day.

Week 30: Back to Form

Starting weight: 505.4 lbs
Week 30 Weight: 461.4 lbs
Week 30 Change: -3.0 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 44 lbs

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Okay, this is much better. 

Was a good week. Stuck to the plan for the most part, worked out a bit (not a lot, and not consistently), and mainly just didn't freak out.  This is going to happen as long as I don't get all stressed out about it.

Don't have much to add.  Just wanted to check in with my number. 

Weight, Weight, Don't Tell Me...

Know what's vital to proper food management and portion control? Knowing how much your food weighs.

Know what helps you do that? A scale.  Not just any scale, though. Because I have a semi-cheap plastic scale with the moveable bar thing.  What would be even more helpful is a digital scale...

...Like the one that Kenlie at All The Weigh is giving away!  She's given away a body scale before. So it pays to read her blog.

What's that? You don't read All the Weigh or follow Kenlie at @alltheweigh on Twitter?

Well, you should.

(This blog post has been brought to you by a shameless attempt to earn bonus entries to a giveaway. I want this scale, y'all.)

Week 29: The Return of the WaddlingBison

I said around Thanksgiving that I wanted to lose ten pounds by the New Year.  Turns out, I had it backwards.

Starting weight: 505.4 lbs
Week 29 Weight: 464.4 lbs
Week 23-29 Change: +9.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 41 lbs

The thing about making excuses and exceptions for yourself is that once you start, you can't stop. It becomes easier and easier to allow yourself a cheat here, a cheat there.

And when you realize your weight is rising, it's easy to disappear from the internet and withdraw from accountability to others.  Sorry about that.

I'm back. I'm not going anywhere.

And I'm about to go to the gym. See you later, kids!