Saturday, October 8, 2011

Week 15 and 16 Weigh-Ins: Keep moving forward.

Starting weight: 505.4 lbs
Week 15 Weight: 461.8 lbs
Week 15 Change: -1.2 lbs
Week 16 Weight: 460.0 lbs
Week 16 Change: -1.8 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 45.4 lbs


Before we proceed, a motivational video:

I love that clip. And yes, it motivates me.

Sorry about the no-post last week. My folks have been out of town, and I've been house-sitting/sister-wrangling for the last week. While I've had full access to the internet, my mind hasn't been on this.

To be honest, my head's been wrong all week.  I've been off balance, out of my element, whatever you want to call it. Haven't been able to weigh myself, because my family's scale is a standard scale with too low of a max weight.  Plus, there's all this food in their house that I purposefully don't keep in mine.  Trigger foods.  Add to this all sorts of stress triggers. Work stress. Family stress. A bit of ministry stress. Single, 30yr. old, brotha-needs-to-finda-wife stress. (I guess people just call all this "life," right?) 

Oh, plus the fact that my bank card number was stolen and almost used to charge up hundreds of dollars in hotel reservations.  And also, because of a mistake on my part (not using the electric company's website properly two weeks ago when i tried to pay my bill), my bill went unpaid and my apartment power was turned off this week, which means all the food in my fridge will need to be thrown out.

So posting a loss this week is a blessing.  That's what I'm going to keep telling myself. I'm frustrated that, before today, I've had a net loss of about 5 lbs in the last month. I'm irritated that my self-control seems to be degrading, and that snacks and sodas that I could resist so easily in the early months, I've started succumbing to lately. I'm aggravated that, even though I signed up for the Halloween 5K in August, I only started training for it THIS WEEK.

I'm disappointed in myself, in general, is the bottom line.  So I'm left with two options: give up, or keep moving forward.

I think you know what I'm picking. 

It's time to go back to the mantra that I had early this year, but somehow lost along the way: Win the Day.

That's all I've got. That's all I can fix. I can't make up for past mistakes, and mere worry can't prevent future ones. All I have is today. And today, I'm going to win.

Have a good week, friends. Pray for me, if you are one who prays. Shoot me a text or email, if you like. Remind me to win the day.  Thanks.


Jaimie said...

"I'm irritated that my self-control seems to be degrading, and that snacks and sodas that I could resist so easily in the early months, I've started succumbing to lately."

Don't be. This is exactly what happened with me. (Let's face it, even though I physically never got to where you are, I had exactly the same habits to break in almost exactly the same proportions. I ate bad in college dude. Fried fried fried, soda soda soda, icecream icecream candy all day long.) It takes time to break the habits. You relapse. The key is to learn from those relapses. Does the food actually help your problems or do you feel worse for eating it in the long term? Maybe you just feel worse psychologically because it's hurting your goal, but eventually you'll get to the point where the food actually makes you feel worse physically too. (For instance, going crazy on chips at Mexican restaurants puts me to sleep, since carb overdosing makes you sluggish. I have to think "Can I sleep today, or do I need energy and should I avoid these?") Just focus on the psychological if you're not already to the point where you feel physically worse. You have to learn why things are bad before the habit truly begins to go away. Don't hate on the relapses completely. They teach you.

(There are so many adverbs in there... ick.)

Dave said...

Thanks for that, Jaimie.

Rachael said...

To tell you the truth I feel like I'm slipping a little too. I weigh in tomorrow but I'm not expecting a loss again this week. Hoping to break even again but we'll see. I'm looking at these last 2 wks as a wake up call. It is a daily battle.